Dreamer

Reality is a lovely place, but I wouldn't wanna live there -Adam Young

-wish i could fly away whenever i wanted to. to become invisible. or superwoman for one day. to live out the wildest dreams you could ever have. to escape reality and consequences. to flyy

where even the sky's not the limit.

Dreamer at heart.

I don't know. It's just grey

I'm bored and I'm tired but I can't seem to sleep before 3;00AM now.


I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I don't know why, you'd even try

♥
Now all I have I count it all as loss
But to know You and to carry the cross
Knowing I'm found
In the light of the aftermath.

I know there is more to this. But yet I'm just letting my humanity destroy myself. Less than humanity even.

Why do we constantly look for things to satisfy us when everything and everyone is imperfect and inadequate? Why do we hold out the hope for something so perfect it would be ideal for the imperfections of ourselves? Why do we know the answer in our heads but never act on them? Why do we self-destruct?

*On a related note; its interesting how our cell's own default state is apoptosis (programmed cell death) unless we constantly produce signals to inhibit this process.

Why.

I miss someone I can just talk to.

Someone who's there for you. Someone who cares. Someone who doesn't give a shit about networking and hidden agendas. Someone who just accepts you for who you are.












Someone you can hug.

What's on my mind?

I'm fcking tired.

I'm tired of caring for people who don't give a shit about me. I'm tired of waiting for a text that's never going to come. I'm tired of giving out chances, only to be let down. I'm tired of thinking things will be different, yet they never change. I'm tired of putting forth 100% of an effort and only getting 25% in return. I'm tired of broken promises. I'm tired of let downs by the people who matters most to me. I'm tired of making someone a priority, when in reality i'm just a number to them. I'm tired of self centered assholes, who only manipulate a situation from their own perspective, never even thinking about what someone else is going through.  I'm tired of the same old bullshit over and over again.

"The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense."